Tracy Morgan is opening up about his experience following the tragic accident in 2014 that led to the death of friend and comedian James McNair.
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Morgan says that it was even harder for him to deal with the death of his friend because he was the reason McNair was traveling in the first place.
“Emotionally, it’s hard for me to deal with,” Morgan told Rolling Stone. “I asked everybody to be there that night. I have to live with that. But I had to forgive myself. I know Jimmy would want it like that.”
Morgan says that after waking up from the coma that he was in for eight days he wasn’t in a good place.
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“I was in a very dark place,” Morgan recalled. “I was sitting right here, contemplating suicide.”
Since then, Morgan has managed to come back better than ever. After working through extensive physical therapy, Morgan is currently on a comedy tour and preparing for the upcoming Richard Pryor biopic where he will appear as Red Foxx.
“Maybe when I was in heaven, Richard Pryor said something to me,” Morgan said. “I feel funnier than I ever felt.”
Overall, Morgan says he’s looking forward to the future.
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“I look forward to my wife getting pregnant again,” Morgan said. “I look forward to my daughter going to nursery school. I’m here. I get to see all of that.”
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