R&B singer Lil Mo is walking into 2020 drug free, she said in a recent Instagram post in which she opened up about beating an opioid addiction.

“I never thought I could get off opioids,” the singer wrote in a post on Tuesday.

Continuing in the caption, Mo added, “BUT I DID!!!!!!!” noting that she’d often pop “30 plus” pills.

“Spent sooooo much [money] paying other people bills just to be high and a functioning addict,” Lil Mo wrote. “I was high and thinking it was OK cuz I could afford it. I’m Lil Mo. I’m famous. Famous people do drugs.”

But it wasn’t until she was being physically abused and threatened to be thrown “over this balcony” nine months ago that she decided to get off of drugs, she wrote. Although she didn’t name her abuser, earlier this year she wrote, “this hurts soooo bad,” after rumors swirled that her estranged husband, boxer Karl Dargan, was unfaithful. She also deleted all photos of Dargan from her Instagram page.

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BUT 👏 I 👏 DID!!!!!!! the OPPS is real mad that i can speak about not having to wake up and pop a 30 PLUS, addi, tramadol and/or whatever else was brought into the house by the devil. I was just the MONEY. Not gonna even CAP. Spent sooooo much 💰 paying other people bills just to be high and a functioning addict. Glad i let the TOXIC GO!!!! I prayed for this GLOW. 2020 gonna be a BIG year for MY children and I. I got some more things to let go of. So many more people to cut off. More old habits to quit. BUT to those that came to HELL to GET me OUT i appreciate you soooooo much. We LIT!! @woo__says @4evakenna7 @huggie_meyers @jdloving1 @ck1loving nobody knows what went on in the dark. But now I’m GLOWING. Clean bitch, inside out. Was in and out of court because i was being PHYSICALLY abused. The judge finally Granted my FULL PFA (protection from abuse) which covers the whole world. NO CAP!!! I had to let this GO. It’s been burning inside me bcuz i know I’m gonna help someone heal. I was ashamed when i hit the bottom. i wanted to die so bad. But i was HIGH and thinking it was OK cuz i could afford it. Im LIL MO. I’m famous. Famous people do drugs. Until the day i heard the words “I’ll blow your fcukin head off and throw you over this balcony”!! Then i ran for MY LIFE!! 9 months ago. I haven’t looked back!! Im at so much peace i don’t want it to be disturbed (save yourself then put the oxygen mask on everyone else) #glow #FNF ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️whatever you are dealing with Don’t take into the new decade. We 28 days away. You can quit NEOWWWWWWW!! Don’t be embarrassed be empowered.

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“[I] was in and out of court because I was being physically abused,” she revealed Tuesday. “The judge finally Granted my full PFA (protection from abuse) which covers the whole world.”

Now, Lil Mo is confident that next year is going to be a “big year for my children and I.” She also thanked her circle of family and friends, whom she leaned on for support.

“But to those that came to hell to get me out, I appreciate you soooooo much. We LIT!! Nobody knows what went on in the dark. But now I’m glowing. Clean bitch, inside out.”

Lil Mo wrote that she opened up about her battle with drugs because she wants to “help someone heal.”

NEW YORK, NEW YORK – AUGUST 20: Lil’ Mo attends the “Power” Final Season World Premiere at The Hulu Theater at Madison Square Garden on August 20, 2019 in New York City. (Photo by Mike Coppola/Getty Images)

“I’m at so much peace. I don’t want it to be disturbed,” she concluded. “Whatever you are dealing with don’t take into the new decade. We 28 days away. You can quit [now]!! Don’t be embarrassed. Be empowered.”

This isn’t the first time Lil Mo has opened up about her drug use. She told Revolt TV back in 2018 that her pill popping led to her being suicidal.

“I’ve done the drugs but it never made the internet. I’ve been suicidal,” she revealed then. “One time we was one the road…I don’t remember what I was off of, but I thought I was dead. I tried to pick up the phone; it looked like it was on fire. I was trying to dial. I said, ‘If my mother picks up this phone, I would never do whatever drug that was again.'”

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