[MUSIC] Every milestone being cloud with gee, that's great, but only if he didn't have aids. I remember getting his eighth grade graduation suit, and mom picking it out saying God, please don't let this be the suit I bury him in. Timid. My mom didn't think I was going to make it to be 10, 11. And then it was 16. And then it was 18. And then it was 21. So in many ways, I kind of spoiled him rotten. I figured if he wasn't going to be here long, he was gonna have the best life I could give him. [MUSIC] When he was seven years old, I gathered together a bunch of his friends and rented a limo to take them down to the Hershey Hotel, where they had a weekend sleepover. I mean, who does that? [LAUGH] You know, who does that? But I'm figuring, you know, I don't, he may not be here next year, so he's having this. This is what he wants. He's having it. And I did that a lot. He received a lot of attention. And he lapped it up. As he still does. I definitely felt that I should be the center of everybody's life. No one had said, why are you indulging this child like this? Here you created this monster that the rest of the world is gonna have to deal with. I just felt like I had failed him early in his life. And if there was anyway I could make it up, I was going to try.