Beat drops and Jay-Z (Bobby Blue Band sample) “Heart of the City (Ain’t No Love)” playing in my head:
“Ain’t no love in the heart of the city
I said where’s the love?
Ain’t no love in the heart of town…”
I’m no Mother Teresa, but unfortunately, in the last few weeks I have been totally overwhelmed and annoyed with the bitterness and conniving ways of some of the people in my life. I wonder what they see when they look in the mirror.
I challenge each of you to take a minute, an hour, a few days and really examine who you are and what you represent. Who do you THINK you are? And then compare that person to the real you. Be honest with yourself. Ever heard the saying, “No one lies to you more than you lie to yourself.”? My truth: I will never be perfect. I just want to give my best, be my best. I want to find peace in the fact that my best may not always meet the needs and expectations of others. I also want to be able to accept that everyone will not meet my needs and expectations. It is really difficult for me to believe that someone’s best could be evil, mean, deceptive, the bearer of malice gossip, etc. But that is not and should not be my concern. Right? PAUSE — I know the answer to that. I just want to admit that two-faced, nasty, not-to-be-trusted people really piss me off and while I know “the Lord says vengeance is mine,” there is a part of me that really hopes these people all learn a valuable lesson in character or lack there of when the Lord is ready. PLAY.
Enough!!!! Up until a few days ago, people with nasty attitudes, callous hearts and mean spirits used to enrage me; now I just feel sorry for their broken souls… and thankful for the person I am. I’ve decided to make a conscious effort to focus more on the positives life has to offer and the undeniable blessing it is to be me.
Praying for those who need it most… and me… and you 🙂
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