I made a mistake. I was out of line and it is not the first time. I have made numerous mistakes in the past. My logical mind reminds me that once something is said or done; there is no taking it back. If I deem what was said or done a mistake — an error — all I can do is work to rectify the damage done, learn from it and not make the same mistake again.
Unfortunately, I have a history of beating myself up for things I cannot change. I dwell on the past and constantly ask myself how things would be if I hadn’t made the mistake. A waste of time… how would I ever know? We cannot buy back time.
I woke up this morning fixated on the makings of yesterday; saddened by the thoughts of all of the negatives that could come from my actions. I almost lost myself. I know better. I just challenged you a few weeks ago to “Promise yourself to be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind…” I had to remind myself of that promise.
I am committed to being the best me. I know my best will vary from day to day. And if I fail at being the best me one day, I cannot spend my time on what could have been done. I am determined to just keep pressing on and doing what I can. I do not have energy to waste on yesterday. It will only be to my detriment. PAUSE ~ It has been the route of depression in the past. Spending hours, days, months lost in thoughts of “what ifs” and feeling sorry for myself. I will never do that again. PLAY ~ I work every day to be a better me, but I must admit one of my downfalls is reliving the past in my mind and focusing on what I cannot change. And as I was reminding myself of this Promise and commitment to “Forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future.” I remembered a yet another quote…
“I am amazed by how many individuals mess up every new day with yesterday. They insist on bringing into today the failures of yesterday and in doing so pollute a potentially wonderful day.” —Gary Chapman
It’s A NEW DAY folks! Thank God for a new start…
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