Nicki Minaj is looking as cute as ever on the November cover of Cosmo, but her revealing interview inside highlights her dark days.

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It’s hard to imagine the bubbly rapper down and out, depressed and on the verge of suicide. But it’s true — she was contemplating ending it all.

“It was one dead-end after another. At one point, I was like, ‘What would happen if I just didn’t wake up?’ That’s how I felt — like maybe I should just take my life,” she tells the magazine according to the YBF.

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Though Minaj is famous now, she remembers searching for a way out. “I would pray to God to make me famous, so I could buy my mother a huge house.”

What do you think of Nicki Minaj opening up about her dark past?

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