In June Mary J. Blige settled her divorce with Kendu Isaacs after a 14-year marriage. The ending was tumultuous after accusations of infidelity and a huge payout that included child support for his children. But despite the dissolution of a life they once had, Isaacs’ daughter Brianna Latrise Isaacs would still like a relationship with Blige.

On a recent episode of Growing Up Hip Hop, the painter said she hasn’t spoken to Blige since she filed for divorce earlier this year. 

“Me and Mary —you know, I love her,” Isaacs said. “And I get it, there’s probably some things where she can’t talk to me right now. And I respect that. But to me it’s almost like I lost somebody.”

“I haven’t heard from you since you filed,” she said during the confessional. “It almost makes me feel like, ‘did I have something to do with it?’ Because she’s not talking to me. What did I do?”

Isaacs also explained to rapper, Pepa why she always felt connected to Blige. “I’m the black sheep of the family. When she came around, it was like, somebody gets me.”

Isaacs is currently a supporting cast member on WeTV’s Growing Up Hip Hop and has a son.