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Paula Rogo
Oct, 28, 2017

Chrisette Michele shared some of the struggles she has dealt with since the fiasco surrounding her performance at President Trump’s inaugural ball, including being dropped by her label, struggling with depression, and suffering a miscarriage.

“I went from someone being revered and loved to facing putting out an album in the worst climate of my musical career,” she said in a series of posts on Instagram.

The singer says that her label dropped her after she delivered them her next album titled “Strong Black Woman.”

"If social media wanted to pull me down, I guess they succeeded as it pertains to Capitol & Caroline records,” she wrote. “I go into the studio and literally poured out my heart and soul and the label decides to walk away from me?”

Michele faced severe backlash after choosing to perform at one Trump’s inaugural balls in January despite many black artists declining the offer. She reasoned that she was “willing to be a bridge” following the tumultuous 2016 presidential campaign season.

In her posts, the singer opened up that she battled with depression and suicidal thoughts following the backlash. Then she had a miscarriage:

“Something came out of me. It was my child. The one my love and I worked so hard on,” she wrote in another Instagram post that included a graphic image of the miscarriage. “I never knew I could allow myself to be so broken that my physical body would break down. Just because I had a negative experience didn’t mean I had to become negative and broken. When I lost my child I knew that it was time for me to become a #StrongBlackWoman.”

Although the journey has been tough, she says that she has recentered herself through rigorous self-love and yoga.

“With every asana and meditation I found my new focus,”. she said. “It was love. It was understanding. It was Peace. I could be the catalyst for peace because I now have a deep understanding for what the exact opposite of peace looks like.”

My love was so supportive during this time. "Strong Black Woman" is not just about powerful black women, it's about the incredible men who support them. My man saw my anxiety and gifted me with a 200 hour yoga course in New York City. I knew it was important for me to be kinder to my body, my self image and my heart. A miscarriage, suicidal thoughts, bingeing and physical overload was taking a toll. Yoga. I was the only black girl. The only curvy girl. But we were one. I was still, a lot. I listened a lot. I studied a lot. I wondered if Christians understood these yogic concepts. Could I be Christian and a yogi at the same time? I lived for the philosophy that I could live a life with out being attached to outcomes. I didn't have to own what people called me. I could experience life from an enlightened and loving place. I could hear what people were saying but I didn't have to own it. I could empathize with out being a victim. With every asana and meditation I found my new focus. It was love. It was understanding. It was Peace. I could be the catalyst for peace because I now have a deep understanding for what the exact opposite of peace looks like. Sometimes there's a re-birth happening. Sometimes, in the least likely circumstances we are being groomed for the next best version of ourselves. Not only can I now stand on my head, I can stand tall on my own two feet. I was being groomed to become a powerful and #StrongBlackWoman #Namaste

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